Dr. Cameron (Jennifer Morrison):
If we want this to not get in the way of our friendship, I think we both have to apologize and put it behind us.

Dr. Foreman (Omar Epps):
I like you, really...we have a good time working together. But ten years from now, we're not gonna be hanging out, having dinners. Maybe we'll exchange Christmas cards, say "Hi," give a hug if we're at the same conference...we're not friends, we're colleagues... and I don't have anything to apologize for.

[House, M.D., season 2 - episode 20]

it reminds me to the miscellaneous conversation/information in winter/spring 2005.

"look at these call contacts (with a weird smile and a bit laugh), soon when I'm totally out of this place, I will not get involved or even meeting to these people anymore.."

and by now, I'm still thinking whether I were one of those call contacts or not.

Oh my god, I guess my mental ilness(es) are getting too heavy!

ada yang bilang, "dia stress berat tuh jadi kurus kaya gitu.."

ada yang bilang, "pasti gara-gara putus cinta deh jadi stress begitu.."

ada yang bilang, "mmh dia dulu kan pernah cuma mau makan 1 kali sehari karena lihat ada bapak-bapak gitu yang cuma makan 1 kali sehari supaya semua anggota keluarganya bisa makan teratur, mungkin dia mau mengulangnya kembali dengan menirunya.."

ada yang bilang, "dia pasti lagi diet ketat deh supaya bisa kurus.."

ada yang bilang, "dia pasti sudah putus asa dalam hidupnya.."

ada yang bilang, "dia mungkin anorexia nervosa.. dari gendut jadi kerempeng kaya gitu.."

lalu tiba-tiba dia berkata dalam hati, "kalian semua salah, saya cuma terkena sindroma munchausen saja kok.."

I guess I kind of believing what the title has been put.

but I think it's more of BPD.  oh my god!

* School Ties

woke up and for the first time the animals were gone
it's left this house empty now, not sure if i belong
yesterday you asked me to write you a pleasant song
i'll do my best now but you've been gone for so long
the window's open now and the winter settles in
we'll call it christmas when the adverts begin
i love your depression and i love your double chin
i love most everything you bring to this offering
i know that i've left you
in places of despair
i know that i love you
so please throw down your hair
at night i trip without you
and hope i don't wake up
'cause waking up without you
is like drinking from an empty cup

woke up and for the first time the animals were gone
our clocks are ticking now so before our time is gone
we could get a house and some boxers and on the lawn
we could make babies and accidental songs
i know i've been a liar and i know i've been a fool
i hope we didn't break it but i'm glad we broke the rules
my cave is deep now yet your light is shining through
i cover my eyes still all i see is you
i know that i've left you
in places of despair
i know that i love you
so please throw down your hair
at night i trip without you
and hope i don't wake up
'cause waking up without you
is like drinking from an empty cup

[The Animals Were Gone - Damien Rice] 

...

*   ‚Í‚¢, Ž„‚Í�í‚ÉŠo‚¦‚Ä‚¢‚é

jublay: "eh sekarang lagi jaman ber-nickname aneh ya?"

juplay: "mmh.. mungkin"

jublay: "oiya fyi, coba deh cari di google dengan keyword no strings attached"

juplay: "emang apaan sih tuh?"

jublay: "yah kaya' abbreviation gitu deh"

juplay: "oohh.."

jublay: "abis gue udah janji sama diri sendiri untuk engga pernah komen2 lagi tentang apapun kepadanya setelah 22 maret 2006 waktu itu, sedikit trauma juga sih.."

juplay: "???!!!"

"nung, maybe you should find a job.. so that you can stop asking my self for money and you could make your own money.."

"mmh, maybe I should.. an internship at least.."

"yes, I totally agree! well you know I stopped asking money to your grandparents when I was 20, and at that time, I taught physics in junior high school"

"ya, I knew that.." [a heaviest lightning struck me at the deepest]

"and you know what, my very first income was only about IDR 5500 and the tuition fee of the university at that time was IDR 7000.

[another thousand lightnings struck me again and I couldn't move]

* as the old folks said that a man should never cry

** and since I'm still a boy, I cried then.. inside

Local Area Connection:

a network cabel is unplugged.

"sorry dc"

"well, maybe I should learn tobacology.."

Francine: Thomas Listen. Listen. There are times when life calls out for a change. A transition. Like the seasons. Our spring was wonderful, but summer is over now and we missed out on autumn. And now all of a sudden, it's cold, so cold that everything is freezing over. Our love fell asleep, and the snow took it by surprise. But if you fall asleep in the snow, you don't feel death coming. Take care

[Paris, je t'aime (2006) - segment Fauborg Saint-Denis]

*courtesy of www.imdb.com

they say, when someone reach the age of 22 and he/she has to end his/her relationship, it would be the hardest broken heart ever.

I guess they are right.